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LQHS Girls Rugby Team

It has been nine years since Regine past away.

This month has been very hard on Sarah. I know when her mom past away she was four and did not get to mourned her mom. Over the past years I've have seen that every April her behavior changes, anger sadness, lonelyness,pain is all over her face. The older she gets the harder it gets, for her for us. I know she tries to put this strong, I don't give a flying fly about anything face, but deep inside I can see she is hurting and I don't know what to do or say. I know she misses her mom and she has a lot of questions.

She has been wanting to go to the mortuary to take flowers to her mom and the minute we walked in she broke down. I didn't know what to say, but all I could do is hug her until she was able to calm down. She said she doesn't like to go there because it just makes her feel worse and ruins the rest of her day. We were there for about ten minutes, the ten minutes it took me to arange the flowers we took into a base. In those ten minutes she broke up like three times. I felt helpless because all I could only do was hug her and tell her how much I love her and although she knows that I know and she knows it is not enough.

For the first time in eight years she told me thank you for being the mom I've never had. Although it made me happy it alsdo breaks my heart because I know it doesn't matter how much I do or how much I love her, it is never going to be enough. I love, care for all three of them the same.